I was born in Kenya, grew up in South Africa, where I attended seminary (SATS), and Botswana, and now live in Europe.
I started my Christian walk just before my 21st birthday in 1978 on a gold mine in South Africa. I was new on the mines and a working colleague and I were stuck in a classroom together learning the Bantu language so that we could communicate with the Bantu migrant workers. It was a miracle in that the gold mines do not employ people with criminal records, yet this guy I was studying with was just six months out of jail for house breaking & theft.
I was intrigued with his story but then he started telling me about Jesus, which really irritated me. But after eight days of being shut up in a classroom with this ex-con, I started seeing that he had changed from what his former self was, and so I started listening more attentively. It wasn’t long after that that I became a Christian myself.
Back then the Charismatic movement was starting to make headway with the “Jesus Only” (Oneness) movement, popularized by public figures such as the famous gospel singer / songwriter Larry Norman. Being a musician myself, I was drawn to the movement and joined in the outreach group in our town, witnessing tirelessly to people in the street and at work to their annoyance, but with some success.
However, through the years the leaders I once looked up to fell from grace one by one and left me disillusioned. I left our church and the mines and headed for the coast drifting from job to job, while trying to look for answers that made sense. I wandered from church to church, asking questions that no one had logical answers to. So I settled into the rut of church-attending, and conned myself into believing that since I was baptised (in a mountain river on a cold and rainy morning) and spoke in so-called “tongues” and confessed the Name of Christ that I was ok. But for years my conscience was not settled.
Years later I stopped wandering from job to job and settled down as a family man. I joined a large church of some thousand plus members and quietly kept out of trouble by keeping relatively silent about my questions.
But then I inherited unwanted Christian books which sat on my shelves collecting dust, until one day I decided to read one of them. These books were from old-school Christianity when holiness meant something for the Christian. I read one book, then another, until I was reading five books at a time plus my Bible. I spent hours a day devouring these books, cross-referencing them with others and my Bible, and praying well into the morning many nights. But I couldn’t believe what I was reading. There were real people who lived like the Christians we read about in the Bible.
Then came the questions again
But my questions haunted me so I started presenting them to my new leaders who once again could not answer them satisfactorily. So, I started knocking on doors of other pastors around the large area I lived in, to the extent that the pastors got together to discuss the “Hugh problem”; which was my disturbing questions about what they were preaching. This has spanned Oneness professors, Calvinists, Armenians, Catholics and those in between. No one could give satisfactory answer to my questions.
Some “troubling” questions they cannot answer:
- Why did God make the physical / materialistic realm when He already had the spiritual?
- Why did God make natural man when He already had myriads of angels who wouldn’t sin against Him?
- Why did God, who hates sin, make man as the cherished creation, knowing that he would sin against Him?
- Where in the Bible does it say even once that true believers are sinners?
- How can they preach that believers will never lose their salvation when scripture clearly and repeatedly states that we live in the hope of salvation (1Thes 5:8), which is to materialise and be realised only at the judgement (1Pet.1:5)?
- How can they preach that we can never escape from sinning in this life when God promised that Jesus came to set us free from the power of sin (Matt 1:21)?
- How do they explain that Christians DO NOT believe in a polytheistic god, yet preach that God exists in three separate persons, none of which is the other?
- Did Jesus die in the flesh only and not in the spirit? Where does it say that?
- How do they say that Jesus is “fully man and fully God” (an absurdity in the expression itself), yet without being able to give even one in-context verse in scripture.
- If we die before we repent of our last sin, will we get to heaven when the Bible clearly states that our sin separates us from God?
- If all are born sinners and are condemned to hell because of it, except for those who supposedly have salvation thrust on them without their consent (as Calvinists preach), then how cruel is God to send us to hell just for being born – innocent infants included?
- If the Bible says that no one gets to see the Father in peace unless they are sanctified (Heb 12:14), then when are we able to be assured of our sanctification if it’s a never-ending process as many believe?
- How do we exercise the faith that will ensure our salvation? For belief itself is not faith, for even Satan and the demons also believe who Christ is, yet salvation is not offered to them.
- If sin separates us from God and heaven, then how do we defeat sin in our lives?
- If speaking in so-called “tongues” of today is true, and is supposed to be given to us by the almighty Holy Spirit of God who has endless creativity, then why is the “vocabulary” so garbled and limited?
- If the testimony of history reveals the wickedness in the early church fathers, and if the universal (catholic) church is found to have been so evil, why do the protestants still adopt most of their false doctrines without question?
- If the apostles thought that Christ’s return was immanent in their time, then why does Christ wait so long to return?
- Why can’t Satan and the rest of the demonic hosts ever inherit salvation?
I could go on and on, but my posts will answer these troubling questions and more, reasonably and biblically. These answers will enable you to obtain a peace with the knowledge of the truth of these matters that leads to salvation (James 1: 21).
Don’t let them fool you
After only a couple of years of following church teachings, I ran more wild than I ever did before. Later I joined a touring motor stunt team, developing stunts (me on top) and learning how to do things I now regret. I couldn’t reconcile being saved from sin and still living in it. (An absurdity in essence).
They claim that we are sinners saved by grace. But scripture never even hints at it. It is an abuse of Rom 5:12 & 20.
But don’t let them fool you into an eternity without Christ. I have written against this in a few of my posts. Heaven is only for those who will willingly die to the flesh and live after Christ (so Jesus said many times). I show how this is achieved in my posts.
After 40 Years
After 40+ years of professing Christ, with much study, and probably too many debates, I have realised that God is reasonable according to the universally understood reasoning given to all moral creatures. And He has translated that reasoning to anyone with an honest heart that desires truth no matter where it may lead them.
However, for those who find it, will also find themselves estranged from the common church circles. Nevertheless, they will obtain as a result, a perpetual peace that transcends understanding – a peace that the church in general cannot have.
I love the God’s church. For it is the voice of Christ on earth. However, I am saddened at its fallen state. And I have come to realise that Christ is not saving the universal church of self-professing Christians. Only those who choose to do His will in loving obedience are the ones He will receive. These are far and few between. Jesus has said that He will take one from a town and another one from a family, etc. But like the flood, Sodom and Gomorrah, Israel from Egypt, few there are in number who will finally be saved.
This site is dedicated to help those find the answers that many cannot answer, in the hopes that they would have the assurance of faith that leads to eternal life.
And for those of you who still disagree after reading my posts with an honest heart after truth, feel free to contend your case with me. Eternity is too long to leave this earth not having pursued truth to live by it.